Wednesday, December 15, 2004

I'm lost

God, life is so confusing, so stress, so many things to think about.

I wonder what is your plan or what is in your mind? How good it is if You can reveal our future to us but i know that that is impossible unless U want us to know. U want us to learn to walk by faith.

God, what should i do now? Which way should i go? I m really lost. What should i do? What should i do? I m really lost, Daddy.... U said U will never leave us nor forsake us, i believe... but i still need to do something rite? i can't be sitting here doing nothing or not working and let money fall from heaven... ???

I have obeyed U in my relationship, in my service to U, please show me, show me how and which way should i go... dear Lord, i need U, i need Your guidance, without U, i'm lost... totally lost.......

I'm waiting for Your answer dear Daddy...

Faithfully awaiting,

Monday, December 13, 2004

SiLLy mE

I was so frustrated at myself, silly me!

Thu, 9 Dec 2004
I got my van key locked in the van again.... how many times should i learn this lesson??? when will i really learn this lesson??? oh my oh my..... it was a tiring day, ministry and work for this season of time, wanted to have a good nice swim at 9pm but i was late, very late infact... suppose to fetch Sally at 9pm. Rush home to change and got my van key locked in the van... so called Sally to fetch and told ps tham about it, he got a person to open the van for us but paid him RM50 just to open the van's door.............. siLLy mE!!! Wasted this RM50 (PsTham's money) to open the van..... SiLLy Me!!!

Wanted to swim 30 laps but only manage to swim 2 laps coz Phebe asked me to come out and settle the key locked in the van case first, wanna get this person to open the van..... haiyyyaaaaa... when i was bathing in Ps' condo, im mumbling, "silly me, silly me, silly me" dunno for how many times... and later on, got myself cool down and ask God in the bathroom, what He wants me to learn... infact... i should know myself... "DO NOT RUSH"...

I alwys fall into this "rush hour" situation, i should learn not to get myself too rush at things, hhhmmm.... God, pls help...

After my bath, Phebe told me this is all satan's same old tricks..... this got me out from my 'silly me' thinking, thinking that "hey, we are doing something great for God this season, so the devil just wanna get us upset"...

Hehehehe... i'm proud of myself of being so busy at this season all coz of Jesus...

Yes, i will do it with all my heart.

Thank you Jesus for what u have done for us mankind, i'm just trying my best to do all that i can for u.... help me... i need u Jesus...


Thursday, December 09, 2004

What a BzzzZZzzz Dec.... HohOoHhOOo

1 Dec 04, Planet Shakers Conference @ Sunway Pyramid Conventional Center
10am - 12.30pm: Leaders meeting with Planet Shakers
1pm - 3pm: Lunch with Planet Shakers
3pm - 6pm: Registration
8pm: Night concert

2 Dec 04, Planet Shakers Conference @ Sunway Pyramid Conventional Center
9am - 12.30pm: Planet Shakers Youth Conference
2.30pm - 3.30pm: Electives
8pm: Night concert

3 Dec 04, Preteen's Camp @ Ps. Tham's condo
9am: Fetch preteens
10.30am: Briefing
10.50am: Water Session Games
12.30pm: Lunch
1:30pm: Dry Session Games
3:30pm: Free time
6.30pm: Dinner
7:30pm: Ice Breaker
8pm: Word of God
9pm: Free time
11.30pm: Bedtime

4 Dec 04, Preteen's Camp @ Ps. Tham's condo
9am: Breakfast
10am: Word of God
11.30am: Prize giving
12.30pm: Lunch
1.30pm: Bowling (My preteen and Sky's preteen)
4.30pm: Fetch my preteen home
7pm: Dinner
7.30pm: Music practice
9pm: Carrefore to get christsmas lights for church christmas tree
10.00pm: Play uno game with Sky's preteen
11.00pm: Prepare songs in powerpoint
12.30am: zZZZzzzZZzZzZzzzzzzz

5 Dec 04, Sunday @ Church
8am: Wake up
9am: Breakfast
9.30am: Go to church
10am: Start church service
12.30pm: Lunch
1.30pm: Youth group
2.50pm: Decorate christmas tree
4.30pm: Collect stuff from ps' condo
6pm: Mamak @ SS15
9pm: Go home
12am: Bedtime

6 Dec 04, Playworks @ Sunway Pyramid
12pm: Fetch SCC kids for outing
4:30pm: Fetch them home
6pm: Went to office to work
8.30pm: Go home
11pm: Mamak with Yuen Nee @ Taipan
3.30am: Go home... =)

7 Dec 04 - 9 Dec 04
Working as usual... bzzz like a bee preparing Christmas stuff.... wow!!!

10 Dec 04, Playworks @ Sunway Pyramid
Another round of SCC outing for some SCC cellgroup...

The rest... dunno yet.. yet to come

Thank you Heavenly Father for this busy Dec, indeed i have learnt a lot of precious lessons from all the events / activities... Continue to mold me God as i'm Yours to use....


Tuesday, November 09, 2004


Thank you Lord Jesus for this new Pentium 4 in the church for me! Love You Lord... Muakzz Muakzz


Monday, November 08, 2004

Saman RM100

Oh man, just paid my saman cost RM100 for not obeying the law, was driving my van exceeding the limit... hahhaa, used to say flying my van but sorry God, i'm gonna change. This is not a good testimony for others. I know... In order not to waste my money in this way paying all the samans and did not shine for Jesus, i will obey the law of Malaysia. God asked us to submit to authority... =) I have learnt my lesson. haahaa... Thank you Jesus for this lesson. :)

Tuesday, October 05, 2004

But if not...

Something interesting that i learnt during my quiet time using Our Daily Bread...

Daniel chapter 3 was talking about King Nebuchadnezzar summoned all the people working under him to bow down and worship the gold image that he has set up as soon as they heard the sound of the horn, flute, zither, lyre, harp, pipes and all kinds of music being played. Whoever does not fall down and worship will immediaely be thrown into a blazing furnace.

But something interesting in this chapter happen, 3 man named Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego did not bow down and worhip the gold image and was very firmed in their faith when being asked was is true that they did not want to bow down, answering King Nebuchadnezzar in verse 16-18, "O Nebuchadnezzar, we do not need to defend ourselves before you in this matter. If we are thrown into the blazing furnace, the God we serve is able to save us from it, and he will rescue us from your hand, O king. But even if he does not, we want you to know, O king, that we will not serve your gods or worship the image of gold you have set up."

Very well, good answer when the 3 of them said they will not bow down to any other gods besides their own God but when they said, "but even if he does not...", does this showed that they are lack of faith? =) NO. They knew God was fully capable of delivering them from the fiery furnace.

There's a lesson in this for all of us. Is God all-powerful? Yes. Is He able to deliver us from all our problems? Yes. Does God always deliver us from all our problems? Yes. Does God always deliver us from our difficulties? No.

We may not fully comprehend God's purpose in our difficulty and suffering, but we must not cease to love Him. We must trust Him and hope in Him in spite of the trials that threaten to overwhelm us.

I'm very thankful that God is letting me to go through some problems that seems so so BIG to me that i nearly fall sometimes but His words always reminds me that His grace is sufficient... and i know for sure that all things work out for good to those who love Him. So whatever we are going through, don't be frighten and lost hope. God is already there and He is helping us to go through hoping that we will learn each lessons to improve our character to be like JESUS.

But if He does not deliver us to the place we wish to be, plans we wish to achieve, don't get angry with Him because it is written in Isaiah 55:8-9, "For My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways My ways," declares the Lord. "As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways and My thoughts than your thoughts."

HALLELUJAH.... it is so nice to hear this verse because we know that GOD WILL ALWAYS WANT TO GIVE THE BEST TO US. Things that we think is the best for us might not the be the best that God wants us to have. HAllELujAH......

Thursday, September 23, 2004

Freedom Of Choice

Father Lord, thank you for the opening of doors that we can see slowly now... thank you for releasing men and women to speak of their rights of religions in Malaysia.

We have the case of Kamariah Ali, Mad Yaacob Ismail, Daud Mamat and Mohamed Ya from Kelantan who are fighting for their rights to what they want to worship according to the Article 11: Every person has the right to profess and practice his religion and Article 18: Everyone has the right to freedom of thought, conscience and religion; this right includes freedom to change his religion or belief, and freedom, either alone or in community with others and in public or private, to manifest his religion or belief in teaching, practice, worship and observance. Their case are still pending right now.

We also have this case where a Hindu man converted to Islam and then converted his children to Islam without his Hindu wife's consent and this case was brought up to High Court.

A malay wrote in The Edge Magazine about 'My Religion' - questioning why only Muslims does not have the right to convert into other religions.

Recently our Prime Minister attended an international gathering of Christian leaders, tears shed at the enormity of the task that lies ahead when it comes to forstering true peace and brotherhood. Our PM said he is a leader for all religions, not only for Muslim.

Anwar, a staunch Muslim was interviewed in Munich, Germany said, "What I want to do in Malaysia transcends partisan politics. I'm talking about a new Malaysia that is multi-racial, multi-religious, with a specific political agenda".

Yesterday in our prayer meeting, we prayed for God's guidance on 3 judges of the Court of Appeal - Sri Ram, Datuk Abdul Aziz Mohamed and Datuk Arifin Zakaria, who will be hearing a landmark case on Oct 14 the appeal by a woman who is seeking a declaration that she is free to practice the religion of her choice as enshrined in the Federal Constitution. Lina Joy, or her original name Azlina Jailani, is appealing against the High Court decision which rejected her application to drop the word "Islam" in her identity card. She became a Christian in 1998.

It is sad if Christianity is only for non-Muslims because God cares for the malays too... they are God's precious child too... Why should they be exempted in knowing Jesus Christ, having relationship with God, freely worshipping the Most High God?

Tuesday, September 21, 2004

Be Watchful

Watch your thoughts; they become words.
Watch your words; they become actions.
Watch your actions; they become habits.
Watch your habits; they become character.
Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.

Sent Down

Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus:

Who, being in very nature God,
did not consider equality with God something to be grasped,
but made himself nothing,
taking the very nature of a servant,
being made in human likeness.
And being found in appearance as a man,
he humbled himself and became obedient to death -- even death on the cross!
Therefore God exalted him to the highest place and gave him the name that is above every name,
that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow,
in heaven and on earth and under the earth,
and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord,
to the glory of God the Father.
~Phil. 2:5-11~

Lord, teach me to humble myself just like Jesus humbling himself in submission to You. Jesus was sent down from heaven to become a man -- a "bondservant" who was obedient to the point of dying on the cross for our sins (Phil. 2:6-8).

Lord, i know that humility and submission to You are not signs of weakness but evidence of Christlike power and character. For it is written, "God resists the proud but gives grace to the humble. Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time." (1 Peter 5:5-6)

Teach me to do the humble task
The very best I can,
And not to look for greater calls,
Which may oppose Thy plan. - Bernheisel
The mighty Architect of the universe
became the humble Carpenter of Nazereth.